finally uploaded and sorted out the photos taken at spandau, the biggest christmas market in berlin - there was even a medieval section and donkeys and sheep you could pat! the weather was freezing cold that week - it was -10degs. my fingers and toes were frozen it was so difficult for me to even hold the camera or walk around. but looking at the pictures now, there's this sense of warmth i cannot describe. maybe it's the smell of the warm gingerbread and mulled wine i can't forget ....

it'll be the new year soon after christmas. this year has been a year of many firsts for me - my first chanel (!!), first time taking 4000 level modules, first time gaining true knowledge and much much more. to list them down will only trivialise them because i'm sure that are a lot more i can't recall now or even list them in order of importance. i definitely had many trying times where i constantly wallowed in self-pity, doubted and demoralised myself (must get read of this defeatist attitude!) and also met caustic and unhelpful people. but despite all these, the great people around me stood by me and without the contrast, i would probably not have realised even more how greatly i'm blessed. :))

it's so weird to think this year as the end of the year because ever since uni started, my concept of a year has been an academic year which spans across two years. anyhow, the end of this year, in both sense of the word, year, will again be the first for me - graduating and finding my first "real" job. i'm not ready yet! when i was young (and i'm sure many of you did the same), i would wear my mother's high heels and clothes and walk around the house counting down how long more it will take me to become an adult, opening the doors of choice and freedom. now here i am wishing time will stand still because i've not enjoyed enough the years of irresponsibility and recklessness after finally realising that choice and freedom has been romanticised. but responsibility beckons and i shall prepare to receive it with open arms and hope that things will fall into place in its time. big guy up there, i hope you'll continue looking down at me.

merry christmas and happy new year everyone. i hope this year was good to you and next year will be better.

after 15 hours of flight and thinking that my ass grew twice its size from sitting down for so long, and having to navigate myself with the 25kg luggage from tegel airport to alexanderplatz, i'm finally back in berlin! the weather has been a downer though, it's been drizzling continuously the whole day - feels very cold bitter east berlin.

but i finally managed to see and smell the miu miu vitello peggy my bro bought for me a few months ago! yayyyyy!






i hope it stops raining so i can bring the bag out. heh. ok although it's only 10 to 9 here, i'm severely jetlagged and should sleep soon.